chris runyon

so i haven't written about this yet. but i have a boyfriend. haha. his name is chris runyon and he's matthew's ex best friend.

we started talking about a month after me and matthew did just as friends. and while me and matthew were having problems, chris was always there for me. he was the only one i felt i could talk to because he knew matthew best. he never once told me that i should break up with matthew and be with him. he always told me that i needed to do what i thought was best for me but that he didn't agree with the way that matthew had been treating me. he was there for me at like 3am his time so much when i was just upset about what was going on.

i knew for a while that he liked me but i kept denying it. i didn't have feelings for him at first. i actually wanted to hook vanessa up with him. i always knew he was an amazing person but i was with matthew so i didn't see him in that way. my feelings for him started changing when matthew and i started having problems. i wanted to badly to fix things with matthew but in the back of my mind i knew things would never be right between us.

like i said i always knew chris was an amazing person. every time i talked to him, even before me and matthew were having problems, he would always tell me that i'm an amazing person, that i have so much going for me, all this stuff. he was always encouraging and wuld just ask me how my day had been. then i started talking to him more and getting to know him better. he's just an all around good guy. he loves his family, he knows his priorities, he doesn't like partying or doing dugs, he goes to church every sunday with his grandma and helps out with the youth group. he's as sweet as can be. he constantly tells me that i'm beautiful and how mush he loves me. he's hilarious and has the cutest accent. he's strong physically and emotionally but also has a soft side where he's not afraid to cry in front of me.

so how did we start dating? well one night i stupidly decided to send matthew a message, i think i was just lonely and wanted someone to talk to, hoping that maybe he'd say he wanted me back, i dunno it was dumb. of course he was being a jerk and i could tell he didn't miss me. so i was upset and in the dumps. i had gotten off the computer with chris about 2 hours before because he was gonna go to bed but i decided to text him anyway. i just said hey i know you probably won't get this til morning but i sent matthew a message and i told him what it said and how stupid i felt. of course right away he made me feel better. i then preceded to tell him that i wish i would had met him first so i didn't have to go through all that stuff with matthew and have my heart broken the way it was. i also told him that i would be the most blessed girl in the world if i got to be with him. it's funny cause amber and vanessa would always talk to him and say that we should be together. even when i was with matthew everyone thought i should be with chris. so after we started dating he told me that that night he started to think that maybe i really did like him. all along he denied it saying there was no way i would because i was still in love with matthew. so back to the story. i don't know if it was the monday or the one after but i was at a bonfire with friends and amber decided she was going to text chris and ask him if the two of us were dating yet. he told her no but that it seemed like we were. he told her that it would be too hard because of the distance and all that stuff. she asked him if the distance wasn't a factor if he would date me and he said yes. so i got on the phone a little later and started texting him. he said hey i know you probably read all those texts and it's all true you're such an amazing person and all this stuff. so i told him that i felt the same way about him. haha i forgot something. the night before we skyped for the first time with his friend carlos, amber and vanessa. it was so fun then amber and vanessa left and the three of us skyped for another 2 hours. the next time we skyped was tuesday night and it was just us two. by this time we both knew how the other felt and chris was telling me all the things he likes about me. at first he was saying like then he got to my hair. haha he said no i don't just like your hair, i love it, then he was saying things he loves about me and told me that he loves me. we talked that night for almost 4 hours! i told him that i love him too. ah i keep forgetting stuff. the night i got back from new york (the week before) chris went out and bought a webcam so we could talk. but that night he couldn't get the video to work so we pretty much talked on the phone for like 2 hours or so. then i think it was tuesday during the day (the day he said he loves me) i sent him a text telling him that i'm over matthew and ready to move on. so back to tuesday night. we said i love you but he never asked me out. so i sent him a text when we got off skype and said, so are we just gonna keep saying i love you or are you gonna ask me out? he said oh man i'm so sorry i'll ask you tomorrow on skype. so the next morning we got on and talked for a while then he started telling me how much he loves me again and said so what i'm getting is aubree kertson will you go out with me? and i said yes! hahaha.

so this friday it will be one month since we started dating. and it hasn't been easy to say the least. matthew found out about us and posted on chris' facebook everything that we "did" together. i was so upset because i wanted to be able to tell chris those things myself when i was ready. but then everyone knew. of course chris was pissed about it too. then there's those people who are our friends that don't think it'll work because of the distance. sometimes it just feels like everyone is against us. but we're determined that this is gonna work.

also vanessa and i are going out there in 21 days!!! we leave in exactly 3 weeks from today and get there in 22 days! we'l be there for 5 days and i absolutely can't wait. we're gonna go to charlotte, pilot mountain, old salem and chris and i are gonna go on a date, but that's a secret. i can't wait to see him, to see how we interact with each other, and how much we really love each other in person.

i can't wait to celebrate 1 month with him. i know that it's crazy to have such strong feelings for someone i've never met in person. but i really do love chris and i believe that he loves me too. with this one i'm definitely working on forever. people think that im crazy because of what happened with me and matthew to jump right into another relationship. but i'm not gonna let one stupid guy get in between and something amazing that i could have.